Today we're going to go on a little adventure through my life in high school. Much like the present, I was not cool. I was a psuedo-gothy emo kid, who wore a lot of black makeup, a lot of really loud and aggressive clothing, all topped off by a perma-scowl. While I haven't returned to that completely, I have noticed a return to some of these elements that really defined who I was. This was a time where I really started using clothing as a means of expression, this is where I really started learning who I was. It was also a really trying time for me. Maybe that's exactly why I'm returning to it now. The last few weeks have been everything but easy.
Fast forward 8-10 years (I really am getting old...) and little elements of my emo edgy gothy high school self have been reappearing in my closet. I've been making weird, adventurous and unexpected clothing and fashion pairings that I'd never have guessed I'd put together a year ago . I've renewed and reinvigorated my love of makeup (my foundation/ mascara look was getting a bit tired). Thankfully, this time around I think I've found a bit of a better balance. It's a bit more grown up, not quite so heavy handed with the black eyeliner, and I'm feeling a lot more comfortable in my own skin now than I did then. The perma-scowl has been replaced with more of a lipsticked half-smirk. The outfits now nod to angsty teen instead of scream it (It's harder to be an angsty teen in your mid-twenties after all).
My gravitation toward these seriously amazing Sailor Moon boots was actually what made me realise exactly who and what I was revisiting. Honestly, I've been having a lot of fun with this renewal of my old school style. It feels like I'm saying something with my outfit choices again and it feels goooood.
I'm back.